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Do one thing every day that scares you. – Eleanor Roosevelt

We have nothing to fear but fear itself. – Franklin Roosevelt

Be strong and courageous, and do the work. –  part of I Chronicles 28:20 in the Bible (No Roosevelts involved as far as I know)

I am a worrier. Whenever I contemplate doing anything, or not doing anything, or hear someone else contemplate doing or not doing anything, my mind instantly conjures up all the ways the situation could go to hell in a hot pink handcart. One of my counselors pointed out that I excelled at finding the downside of every potential course of action (or inaction). 

This week, I published my first novel.

An English teacher has now popped up in my head. “Compare and contrast these two statements.” They shouldn’t come from the same mind, but they do. 

For years, I dreamt about how this moment would feel. Now that it has arrived, I find it humbling and nerve-wracking and anticlimactic and impossibly thrilling all at the same time. 

Have I overcome my basic worrier nature? Not hardly. But the worrier in my head shares living quarters with a determined spirit. 

The Roosevelts and the Bible – and the Qu’ran, the Torah, the Bhagavad Gita and various Buddhist writings, which all say a variation on the same thing – make a good point. Just because something is scary doesn’t mean it isn’t worth doing. 

I have considered the disaster scenarios. I have made some plans. From here out, I improvise, and all will be well.

Mostly.

Kimberly can’t turn the worrier completely off, but sometimes the determined spirit triumphs.


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